Showing posts with label Spirituality. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Spirituality. Show all posts

July 1, 2014

Released! Now what?


I woke up this past Saturday feeling incredibly excited. In fact, the excitement (and a bit of anxiety) had been building in me over a few days... maybe a week.

But Saturday I felt EXCITED. Like bouncing off the walls with an eager sense of something coming.

Then it came.

And now I'm grappling with the aftermath as I begin to adapt to a very different inner landscape.

So What Happened?


I've got to give you some history and context so it all makes sense when I get to the punchline.

April 23, 2014

The Most Bad-Ass Prayer I Ever Prayed.



"HEAL MY LIFE"


That's what I found myself chanting.

Brought low by the terror and panic of a disintegrating life and losing my place in it, a life and version of myself I no longer knew how to shift... I finally flung open the door of my soul. 

I let myself hear the whispered words in the spaces of my mind. And I said them, reaching out with my whole heart to The Divine. 

Asking. Begging. Weeping. On the proverbial though not literal floor, and in a semi-trance. 

I was finally done resisting - at least right in that moment - the reality that this was bigger than what I knew how to fix. 

But a moment, a sliver of space, is all it takes.

August 6, 2013

When I Forget I Am {AWESOME}


You know those moments. When you get upset by some sh... stuff going on in your life, and it feels scary and overwhelming. You disintegrate. It triggers someplace inside that flips you into disempowerment mode.

You totally forget whatever good things you felt and knew about yourself at some (now distant feeling) time in the past, because you sure don't feel that way right now. 

Right? I mean, that happens to you, too... right?! ;-)

So what happens when that happens?

How do you flip out of that?

How do you degauss yourself, set your feathers back to unruffled status, pull your pieces back together into some semblance of wholeness, and move forward?

June 12, 2013

What are Angels? How these Beings explained themselves to me.


Ah, Angels. How to talk about this without sounding like an airy-fairy kook?

I'll just present this (like everything else on here) from the standpoint of my experiences. If it works for you or is useful in some way, great. If not? That's cool, too.

So. ANGELS. What are they?

First, a bit of background. 

I have had Angels and Angelic energies in general work with me a lot. They've been present with me in one way or another since I can remember in childhood. They come through in healings I've done. They've come close to me and made me conscious of them during other times or specific experiences in my life. They nudge me gently though sometimes loudly. And I generally accept their presence, their desire to help, and I have endeavored to work with that more and more over time.

I really struggled with calling them "Angels", though I couldn't come up with a better word for what I was experiencing. I was and still am frustrated with the word. It has too many connotations - religious and new age - that sort of obscure who and what they really are. The idea the word "Angel" has taken on is just not quite... it. In addition to loving benevolence, they are fuller, wilder, fiercer, and much more fun than that!

At one point in this process a few years ago, when a moment of connection was particularly strong, and I was especially frustrated with my lack of understanding about these Angelic Beings who were working with me all the time, I asked, "So what the heck are you guys anyway?" Because, hey... best to get something from the proverbial horse's mouth, right?

And I got an answer! 

May 12, 2013

What Makes You Thrive in Life?


Many things have been rearranging themselves within me, but as that shuffling goes on, I am down to one of the bare bones things that I don't quite yet know how to deal with...

I've never liked/loved Life. It's always been a struggle for me to appreciate it. This world is full of things I don't understand that seem so -damn- hard. 

Sure, I have spiritual reasons for being here. Fine. But I don't have personal, human reasons for loving this life. 

Here's the thing... I don't want to not live. It's not even that I can't find things to enjoy in this life.

It's more that I cannot find my own compelling reasons for really engaging with Life in a way that thrills me, that's joyful. Some reason or viewpoint that causes me to feel pulled forward into life in a way that isn't just about surviving it but about truly thriving in it. Something that would finally make me love it

April 17, 2013

You're Here On Purpose. (And you can't screw it up.)

You. Me. Everyone and everything... here on purpose. 

That's what I've felt and believed ever since I can remember.

I hear people talk about how you can be "off" purpose or that somehow you can do your life wrong.

And every time I hear it, I know it's not true.

I don't know how I know it. But I know it.

And it's not that I never spin out with worry about whether I'm doing my life "right"... the mind generates worry, and I can be a worrier.

It's that I always come back to that deep touchstone inside that just KNOWS I cannot mess this up, even if my mind likes to spin scary stories.

April 13, 2013

Clearing Out Negative Energies: Quick & Easy!


Over the years, I've worked with different tools and techniques to eliminate negative, sticky energy out of my field or space. But in the last couple years I've hit on what is for me the simplest, easiest way to energetically take out the trash.

Whether it has collected there because of psychic intrusion, psychic attack, empath-ing things that I didn't get rid of later, or just walking through energy cow pies... it doesn't matter. 

All these many and varied versions of ick collect in our personal field or space (or aura, if you like).

They can drag us down and cause us to feel drained and tired. They can and do affect our emotions and thoughts. 

Some people are more energy sensitive than others and seem affected more profoundly by it. But that doesn't mean they are necessarily conscious of the energy they are being affected by. It's more that they have a sensitivity in their energy system which responds.  

I happen to have one of those sensitive energy systems and bodies. Perhaps it's partly because I'm also an HSP (Highly Sensitive Person) that this shows up this way for me. And there's nothing vainglorious about that "being sensitive to energy" thing either! Every "gift" has two sides... the front of the hand and the back of the hand. And that back of the hand can smack you around sometimes. 

Anyway. 

Turns out, it's just good field management to clean it out periodically. So, I share here my very best and easiest tool for doing just that.

March 25, 2012

Snap Out of It! (The Trance of Unconditional Love)



Unconditional Love has come up as a topic in my world a lot.

I usually hear it talked about like it's the gold standard of loving people or being loved by them.

It's often referred to in romantic connections, though it's also an implicit standard among platonic involvements. Most people, however, seem to be falling painfully short in finding this elusive ideal.

A recent batch of fresh conversation about this kind of love and the pain of not having it got me thinking again about the whole topic of Unconditional Love.

And...

May 9, 2011

A Prayer for Ease and Grace

Where I am today:
When you find that somehow the landscape of your life has changed, and the people, tools, and structures you've always relied upon are no longer reliable or even safe... that's a personal 9.0 earthquake/tsunami/nuclear meltdown.  
Clearly, a massive shift is being called forth.  
I strive to calm myself in order to find the way.  Or to be still enough to let it find me.  
These are times of huge shifts - the nature and impact of which we cannot fully even comprehend.  At least I can't.

(And I don't think that's even the objective.  Sometimes the quest to understand is simply a way to delay/distance/try to stay safe rather than to simply accept and move to the new space we're being urged to move toward.)

I have a mounting awareness of a new space being prepared for me to move into.  A new cosmic zip code.  And right now... it's slightly terrifying.

This is my prayer for me.  And if it suits you, I offer it for you, too (just an offer, but good anytime!):
I call for Divine Grace to help me accept what is, just as it is right now, knowing that all is exactly as it is Divinely Designed to be, and to provide me with a loving, smooth, easy transition to the next level of my experience.  
I call for the personal alignment on all levels of my Being to help me allow this loving and comfortable ease to blossom and flourish in my experience of Life.  
Thank you.  I receive it now.
I wish you a peaceful heart full of love and comfort tonight and always,

Orilea

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